Moby takes a trip down memory lane in his new visual memoir, titled ‘Porcelain,’ that gives his viewers a glimpse of what it was like to experience early rave culture in The Big Apple. A visual compliment to his recent autobiography, Moby takes a stroll throughout Manhattan while discussing ramped drug use, his hatred of growing up in the suburbs, illegal parties on the L train, his first gigs, and much more.

Describing NYC as a “filthy, dysfunctional, wonderful, degenerate paradise,” Moby explains how the Metro North Train going into the Grand Central Station “saved his life” from the defining emotions of shame and the various suicidal tendencies that he experienced while living in Connecticut.

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